I am…Pregnant

I am…Pregnant




: expectant

: the condition of a woman that is going to have a baby or babies

:  having possibilities of development or consequence 

:  rich in significance or implication


My emotions are fragile and brought to the surface in an instant

Our home feels incomplete, waiting for her arrival

Certain unexpected thoughts (smells) make me nauseated

When I lie my head on my pillow she is on my mind, and when I wake up my thoughts quickly run to her

I am consumed by her, everything in my pregnancy is about getting her here safely

I too dream of seeing her sweet sweet face, smelling her essence, touching her hair, feeling her skin…with longing so strong it weakens me

I worry that something might go wrong during my pregnancy, and that I won’t be able to protect her

I look into the eyes of my children, grinning, knowing the richer life they will have when she is here

Commercials, articles, children…anything can cause that immediate lump rise in my throat

I wonder what life will be like with her here, and if our arms can welcome her with all the love she needs and deserves

The most painful experience of my pregnancy is that my heart is outside my body, walking through life without me, instead of nestled safely in my womb.


{ Just as you do not know the path of the wind

and how bones are formed

 in the womb of the pregnant woman,

so you do not know the activity of God

who makes all things. Ecclesiastes}

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